Not really been thinking about it!

I've surprised myself in that I've not been thinking (read: obsessing) about what will happen this cycle that much. Obviously it's just crossed my mind again, but I should be getting my period by this time next week hopefully. I'm not expecting to be pregnant. I just don't think I'm ovulating, or at least not obviously, and I have no idea when. Something's just telling me that I think my body just isn't ready for pregnancy yet. And sometimes I think that's just as well. For now, I think I have faith in that it'll happen when it happens. And part of me is thinking the later the better, to give a bit of a bigger age gap so that Christopher can be closer to school age than Robert was. I have so missed not having the one-on-one time with Christopher as a baby, that Robert had.