Hmmm... Still NO SIGN whatsoever of my period. I've not had any spotting at all this month, absolutely nada. In the 6 full cycles I've had since Christopher's birth, two have been 29 day cycles, two have been 30 days, one has been 32 days and one has been 34 days. I just don't know what's going to happen. If I'll end up with a longer cycle than before even or if I'll get my period tomorrow some time. Yesterday morning I had a twinge which made me feel like maybe my period was coming. But nothing yet.
I have one pregnancy test left, it's a CBD. I'm wondering whether to take it tomorrow morning or wait til Monday. I *know* it'll be best to wait til Monday, but I'm really not sure I can. It's a miracle really I've even waited this long. I just know if I'd had any cheapy tests they'd be gone by now, one a day since Monday :P Monday, I'll be on CD37 if my period hasn't shown up.
And whenever I do test... I'll be nervous if the result is positive, mainly because of Jonathan's reaction. I really don't know how he'll be if it's positive. He's having a hard time of late, and I'm a little scared if the result is positive, if the news of another baby on the way will tip him over the edge. I don't think I've ever felt so conflicted ever... especially as we have been TTC since January. I guess the thought going round my head is... if I am pregnant - do I tell Jonathan straight away??!! Or leave it a little while so I can try and guage how he will react?
Showing posts with label cycle. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cycle. Show all posts
Friday, 15 June 2012
Saturday, 7 January 2012
CD28
More blood tinged CM today at CD28. CD27 had cramps. Woke up this morning very tired - but Christopher was up at 2 crying and took a few attempts to resettle him (trying to get night weaning sorted), and just when I thought I'd have to give up and give him the boob (trying to wait til 5am til he has more milk) he settled down. I really don't know if the tiredness (it felt rather extreme this morning) is just Christopher waking, or the other thing.
Jonathan seems to have come around on the whole "more than 2 kids" thing. But we are currently in discussions about schooling (or lack thereof - not saying there won't be education!!). I am leaning towards unschooling right now, what brought this about I'm not sure but part of me really really wants to do it! But the thing is I am having to talk a LOT about it with Jonathan, who has serious misgivings about various aspects of it. Some of which I don't have the answers to, so am having to research. He is really quite upset about the whole thing, and completely and utterly wants the kids to go to school. And part of me wants them to as well. But then I think what do I do once the kids are all grown up and in fulltime education? It would make sense to have at least a part time job, but what? Where? Part of me thinks it would be good though to do this. I am so conflicted, but luckily nothing needs to be decided for some time. Nursery places aren't allocated until March/April, and of course education doesn't become compulsory until 5.
This parenting business has so much to think about. It's amazing what people think though when you tell them you are considering not sending your kids to school. How anything that's not mainstream is gasped at, and you are treated like you are doing something awful to your kids. I told someone who seemed appauled at this that I was pleased she cared about my kids enough to show such concern, and that I would think about all she said when I discussed with J what was best for our children. Her response was "Robert is an amazing little boy and I want the best for him". But the thing is, your idea of the best isn't always the same as the parents', and it's our job to decide what is best, whatever that may be. Parenting is so emotive... I could probably come up with a dozen parenting topics off the cuff that causes debate.
Anyway... I am due on tomorrow at the earliest, although seeing as I've only had one full cycle so far, I could come on much later. Given the red CM I would guess it could be AF on her way. We shall see I guess! Haven't bothered testing today, I will test maybe on Monday or Tuesday if there's no sign of AF. Or perhaps leave it til Friday that way I can be sure that I am at least due for AF soon if not overdue. It's a long old wait.. even without properly TTC!
Jonathan seems to have come around on the whole "more than 2 kids" thing. But we are currently in discussions about schooling (or lack thereof - not saying there won't be education!!). I am leaning towards unschooling right now, what brought this about I'm not sure but part of me really really wants to do it! But the thing is I am having to talk a LOT about it with Jonathan, who has serious misgivings about various aspects of it. Some of which I don't have the answers to, so am having to research. He is really quite upset about the whole thing, and completely and utterly wants the kids to go to school. And part of me wants them to as well. But then I think what do I do once the kids are all grown up and in fulltime education? It would make sense to have at least a part time job, but what? Where? Part of me thinks it would be good though to do this. I am so conflicted, but luckily nothing needs to be decided for some time. Nursery places aren't allocated until March/April, and of course education doesn't become compulsory until 5.
This parenting business has so much to think about. It's amazing what people think though when you tell them you are considering not sending your kids to school. How anything that's not mainstream is gasped at, and you are treated like you are doing something awful to your kids. I told someone who seemed appauled at this that I was pleased she cared about my kids enough to show such concern, and that I would think about all she said when I discussed with J what was best for our children. Her response was "Robert is an amazing little boy and I want the best for him". But the thing is, your idea of the best isn't always the same as the parents', and it's our job to decide what is best, whatever that may be. Parenting is so emotive... I could probably come up with a dozen parenting topics off the cuff that causes debate.
Anyway... I am due on tomorrow at the earliest, although seeing as I've only had one full cycle so far, I could come on much later. Given the red CM I would guess it could be AF on her way. We shall see I guess! Haven't bothered testing today, I will test maybe on Monday or Tuesday if there's no sign of AF. Or perhaps leave it til Friday that way I can be sure that I am at least due for AF soon if not overdue. It's a long old wait.. even without properly TTC!
Thursday, 10 November 2011
Another little update!
After the spotting on Saturday, I had nothing. Nada. Becca said that she found that when using the end of the roll that can sometimes give a pink tinge with the adhesive to stick it to the roll, and realised that yes I may well have been using the end of the roll! So I thought that it was probably all in my imagination then.... especially since the cramping went away mostly (and what was left was probably down to my mild tummy bug). UNTIL TODAY!
I just went to the toilet, and there was DEFINITE red spotting on it! From the middle of the toilet roll! ;) I'm still thinking it's unlikely that I have a new little bean growing, but things are DEFINITELY on the move now! I'll take a test tomorrow (just to be sure) but then wait and see when AF turns up!
Other non-fertility/cycle news at the moment... Christopher is quite poorly with a bad cold and accompanying fever. He really does feel quite rotten with it... Robert has the same cough Christopher started out with, and a sore throat, so wondering if he'll get the fever too :( We've started a no TV thing but with two poorly boys, I figure a bit of mindless TV watching isn't such a bad thing!
Hope you're all well! Tell me one exciting bit of news you've had in the last few days in the comments!
I just went to the toilet, and there was DEFINITE red spotting on it! From the middle of the toilet roll! ;) I'm still thinking it's unlikely that I have a new little bean growing, but things are DEFINITELY on the move now! I'll take a test tomorrow (just to be sure) but then wait and see when AF turns up!
Other non-fertility/cycle news at the moment... Christopher is quite poorly with a bad cold and accompanying fever. He really does feel quite rotten with it... Robert has the same cough Christopher started out with, and a sore throat, so wondering if he'll get the fever too :( We've started a no TV thing but with two poorly boys, I figure a bit of mindless TV watching isn't such a bad thing!
Hope you're all well! Tell me one exciting bit of news you've had in the last few days in the comments!
Wednesday, 13 January 2010
Hmm odd.
Okay.... where to start. Yesterday I was fine, today I am fine. Yet on Monday I couldn't get through the day without crying. I feel a little silly for over-reacting, as now it seems that perhaps it was just an odd hormonal surge.
Now for my second bit of news. The last two days I have had quite a large amount of cervical fluid. Enough to get onto my knickers. Then today I went to the loo maybe around 4pmish.. wiped and nothing. Wiped again, and on that bit of tissue there was a sudden appearance of blood (red) - not just spotting, but what appeared to be light period bleeding. I've been to the loo twice since, and had only blood-stained wee on the paper if that makes sense?
I've put a panty liner in and will see what happens, but the reason I'm so confused is that I am only on cycle day 19 at the moment... I will see if AF turns up but it seems ridiculously early for it to be AF especially considering my last two cycles have been 33 days and 38 days respectively.
Now I know what you're probably thinking, because I'm thinking it too. Implantation bleeding? But I really don't want to get my hopes up!
One more question though: Can exercise cause this? Today I've done about 45 minutes on the wii board, the first time I've been on there in ages. Could exercise cause some early bleeding?
Thank you Linds and Jemma for the comments on the last entry, I really appreciate them! I'm feeling better now though so I'll wait :)
Edit: thanks Jemma and Linds again! We had BD on Tuesday night, and after reading your comments we did it again last night ;) I guess I definitely ovulated then at least this week?!
Now for my second bit of news. The last two days I have had quite a large amount of cervical fluid. Enough to get onto my knickers. Then today I went to the loo maybe around 4pmish.. wiped and nothing. Wiped again, and on that bit of tissue there was a sudden appearance of blood (red) - not just spotting, but what appeared to be light period bleeding. I've been to the loo twice since, and had only blood-stained wee on the paper if that makes sense?
I've put a panty liner in and will see what happens, but the reason I'm so confused is that I am only on cycle day 19 at the moment... I will see if AF turns up but it seems ridiculously early for it to be AF especially considering my last two cycles have been 33 days and 38 days respectively.
Now I know what you're probably thinking, because I'm thinking it too. Implantation bleeding? But I really don't want to get my hopes up!
One more question though: Can exercise cause this? Today I've done about 45 minutes on the wii board, the first time I've been on there in ages. Could exercise cause some early bleeding?
Thank you Linds and Jemma for the comments on the last entry, I really appreciate them! I'm feeling better now though so I'll wait :)
Edit: thanks Jemma and Linds again! We had BD on Tuesday night, and after reading your comments we did it again last night ;) I guess I definitely ovulated then at least this week?!
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Period coming, house signing tomorrow
I think my period is coming - which is a big relief :) Lets hope it comes properly in a few days :)
Tomorrow J and I are signing the contract for the new house. It's very exciting, and I guess I shouldn't be in any rush to get pregnant as there'll be a lot of things to sort out for that, and when it happens, we'll be settled and can concentrate on getting the house "baby friendly". For now, it's exciting enough knowing we're moving to a house that's great, and where it WILL be big enough to have a baby or two ;)
I am a little concerned though about my cycle with this delayed period. Will I ovulate this cycle? Will I ovulate next cycle? I don't know what this stress could have done to it all. I guess J will be getting his way afterall - just doing it every two days when I'm not bleeding regardless ;) I might start to fertility chart when I get this bleed. Although I am two weeks late for my period now. We'll see what happens. I never realised how important it was to do what people were saying "relax and just enjoy it".
Anyway, hope you all have a happy valentine's day!
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